1.23.2012

Who did I let down this time?

You may notice that today is Monday - Jan 23...the day I was *SUPPOSED* to go back to work. Yeah, well, that didn't happen. I had a slight (painful) setback this weekend, and I realized very quickly that I bit off more than I can chew, and decided to spend another week at home. Sigh.

I have my post op appointment this afternoon...we will see how that goes.

I have been going a little stir crazy at home. I know this about myself. I cannot sit still for too time - or I go bonkers.

I'm very frustrated with myself - for several reasons. (1) Did I ask/expect too much of myself? or (2) am I being a wimp? Maybe both. Maybe neither. Either way - I'm frustrated at the end of the day.

3 comments:

--D. said...

Don't be so hard on yourself. It sounds like you underestimated the severity of this operation. I'm not even going to call it a procedure, because that minimizes it like going to see a doc to have an in-grown nail fixed. This was major. I wish I could have prepared you better, but its one of those things that until you've experienced it you have no idea how bad it is. Yeah, the pain is bad, but so is the mental idleness (is that even a word?) Hang in there!

David in 88012 said...

You are not letting anyone down by taking care of yourself. Remember you can't care of anyone if you aren't healthy. Give yourself time to heal!

Anonymous said...

It didn't sound like you really were ready to go back to work when I talked to you on Saturday....I think you made a good decision. I can totally relate to the mental idleness - we must be related!
Aunt Peggy